Longer Than It Should

 The legendary magician apparently has been known to take it easy and put on significant amounts of weight between his ridiculous stunts.  I'm not a legendary magician (yet?), but I do find my weight fluctuates with my moods, though it is certainly trending upwards over the last few years.  This thought process relates to a few days ago and shaving.  Life all seems to be spinning.  Each day is just like yesterday, except not quite.  Like this morning, I'm editing this post, which I started writing last night, only I wrote that sentence last night too, as though I were writing it this morning.  But who cares when I wrote it, actually, I guess two people might care... me and you.    Spinning ... great song by a friend of mine.  I'm finally operating on all cylinders now, an hour before bedtime.  I swear these medications aren't helping.  We're trying something new, but I have little hope that that will help, and then there's alwa...

 I have the desire to make all our Fish For People content free.  To do this, I would need to bring in more money from Lightning Lucas.  It's a complex ecosystem, and it is never quite finalized.  Most likely, a big Patreon Push would be the ticket, or part of the ticket anyway. I'd like to buy a new microphone (perhaps a Blue Yeti Pro XLR), and a new laptop (should I switch to Mac???).  Actually, a large debate currently in my mind is how much recording I can do at home.  Perhaps I can't do any Fish For People recording at home, but I can do Lightning Lucas recordings at home.  I was just reading about the specs on the microphone I just mentioned, and it says it can record sound up to 4x more in depth than CD quality... When would I ever need sound of that quality?  I don't know, but I guess it has its place.  I've come to view all the recordings I've ever made as Lightning Lucas as demo quality.  If a more important organization ever '...

Well just do it. Maybe tomorrow. No, right now. I don't have time. Sure you do. It's just an inconvenience, that's all. This poor dog, she's not even 2 years old and she already sleeps so much. I should get a job. I don't think I could handle it. I already have a calling, that's sort of like a job. Then why don't you live into that? That's what I'm trying to do right now. Does anyone really want to hear/read your thoughts? Sure they do, they just don't know it yet. Don't you view your podcast as a failure? I guess I do, but some people liked it. Shiny, shiny, shinier. Everything must become shinier. But this post will probably never be shined up.  I guess for me it's going to take a perfect storm of luck and skill and a little more luck. But I try to expand the surface area of my luck. So I hope you enjoyed reading these tumbling thoughts. Today I suggest listening to my song Longer Than It Should . See you tomorrow.

 I think part of my mental hygiene might involve writing something each day.  Perhaps I'll start today.  I don't understand the internet.  I don't understand the music industry.  I need to improve what I produce so that it can match the awesomeness level of what is in my brain.  I'd like to buy a new laptop... actually I just wish my current one worked a little better.  I'd like to buy contact lenses, cuz the world seems about 5% better when I'm wearing them.  I'd like to have a normal job so I could afford things like these, but I feel that I've proven that I'm incapable of holding down such a job, perhaps in the same way I've proven I'm unable to shave every day (or grow a large beard for that matter).  Our appetites are what we must strive to work on, because if we can change them, the habits will take care of themselves.  I'm working on my desire to write every day.  It doesn't have to change the world, but if it does, that'd ...