Longer Than It Should

I was just going to link to another podcast, but I decided to write something... My last 2 years have been fairly devoted to Hold That Note (my musical podcast which came out weekly for most of 2022 and 2023). Alluding to the title of this blog (Longer Than It Should), I was sure that somehow the show would make a breakthrough eventually.  Now I'm not so unrealistic... there is no reason that the show can't remain in obscurity perpetually.  Even if I never stop making art, 'the people' are not obligated to tell their friends about it.  They will only do so if there's something in it for them, which makes sense... that's how I operate too... an equal and opposite reaction, or whatever. Well, it's clear that I have some bitterness about the whole thing.  (I'll admit that).  My whole ecosystem on the internet is so close to good enough... and yet so far.  It's like the difference between good and great gapes larger and larger the closer you get to it. ...

 Here's the link to my newest podcast episode:  https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/holdthatnote/episodes/119-Nikos-Song--Wake-Up-Oh-Sleeper--journaling-with-God-e2rhpt3 Or find it wherever you get your podcasts by searching 'Hold That Note' ... and don't forget to subscribe.

Figuring out what to do with your life isn't easy.  Sometimes I feel like I'm a stem cell... I could morph into anything without warning.  (This may reflect a fairly rudimentary understanding of stem cells). Right now I've basically been stripped down to me, my dog, and my car... and for now I'm staying with my parents... so we're all just waiting to see what I evolve into next.  Could it be a musician? A blogger? A YouTuber? A podcaster? A comedian? An actor?  A children's book author/illustrator?  An accountant? A business tycoon? A foot surgeon? A railroad conductor? A theoretical physicist? A bazillionaire? A racecar driver? It's hard to decide.  And the rules are changing daily... It's hard for me to even discern what my personality type is.  It seems to shift like sand. I'm not exactly sure how sand shifts.  The way I shift is by getting energy from some gatherings and being overwhelmed and anxious about other very similar ones.  Tangen...

Jamie does this thing where she will lay peacefully at my feet, but then she will spring to attention the second I get out of my chair to do something. Just now I had to ask my dad to hand me my phone because I had accidentally left it on the other side of the room before sitting down (and Jamie had decided to lie down at my feet almost immediately).   ----------------- I'm trying to blog more because the numbers show that it's more effective than podcasting, at least for me. Also it takes less time and effort for me to make a post, so if more people read it AND it's easier to make, that seems like a big win.  It's always hard for me to pick a medium. YouTube is great, and it's not that hard to do once you have a setup, but I don't really have a setup right now, and I don't see a likelihood of a sprawling desk covered in giant sleek monitors manifesting itself in my near future. Right now my basic plan is to try to have three or four house shows (although, l...

I find it's easy to fall into an existence where one only wants to do the easy things. We are all like water droplets meandering down the window panes of life, choosing a left here and a right there for no apparent reason to the human eye, but to the eye of the water droplet each decision of which way to go is obvious. Since we are humans though, not actual water droplets, sometimes our decisions seem loaded and important. If you ask me, they aren't. Each one we come to, we end up doing exactly what we were destined to do. Perhaps this is predestination talk, but it's an interesting thought process. Have you ever seen the Mario minigame where they drop a little treasure chest into the mouth of one of three intertwining pipes, and it winds its way down through the mass of pipes and comes out at the bottom into the expecting hands of either Mario, Luigi, or (God forbid ) Bowser?  What makes this game fun is that the mess of pipes which the treasure chest goes through is publi...

As I continue to brainstorm and dream about what my next steps might look like in the creative department, perhaps I will just write some of these blogs occasionally to try to keep the rust at bay.  (Could I do three a week? Or is that too ambitious?) They still lack the marketing which my podcast lacks, but they are much easier to write and edit, and they can serve the same purpose of getting the songs out there. -------- Recently I have been listening back through all of my podcasts, and I think I have succeeded at making a bingeable thing, the episodes flow nicely, although you do get tired of me telling you all of the ways to support the show at the end of each episode. -------- One episode really stood out to me recently. It's the episode featuring my alarm clock song and ringtone song. They are both awesome!  It is episode 72 of Hold That Note on your favorite podcast app (please subscribe in case I ever do restart the show) ...or just listen to it here:  https://yo...