Write before bed

 I already have a pretty solid habit of journaling before bed, but this thing, this lowkey blogging habit that I'm trying to develop, is a different animal.  When shall I make time for it?  There isn't always time in the morning.  There isn't always time before bed.  Therefore, I either have to make time for it when there's time available, or I have to write multiple posts whenever I can make the time.  Yes, that sounds like a plan...

Okay, now it's the next morning, and I'm feeling that it is obvious that I have to make a regular time to do this, and link it to a regular habit that I already do consistently (such as breakfast), or the habit will not survive long.

To say something of substance: here's a song I wrote about depression 10 or 12 years ago.  It's still pertinent.  It's something I wish I had remembered to remember earlier in my current low: "You gotta wait it out".  Of course, as the song says: "Make sure to take the time to tell the people in your life you could use some help."  I've done that, so that's good.  And as I said the other day, we are switching some meds... so I guess I just have to wait and see if the switch helps.  

Talk soon, 

        --Lucas--  

P.S. I apologize for the jingle at the beginning and end of this song.  I mostly regret it, but it seemed like a good idea at the time.  Some day I will edit it out. 

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